Jonesing...

Seriously, I am suffering from withdrawals! I am having dreams about flirting with strangers! How messed up is that?! Last night I was dreaming and in the dream I kept walking past guys or making eye contact with them and I'd smile and I would light up every time they smiled back. What is it about that return smile that is so powerful? It is like a drug to me. Anytime I am having a bad day or feeling bad about myself, seeing a cute guy and getting a little smile, it's like the clouds part and the sun comes out for an instant. It doesn't even have to go anywhere, just seeing that little smile gives me some kind of validation of my worth or something.

Other than that, it is going well so far. I was pretty depressed earlier in the week, but as always Batman was there for me. Hopefully the withdrawals will pass soon and I can get on with the whole "self improvement" part of it.